fifth business

I am so PISSED OFF by inconsiderate behaviour towards me, that I require retail therapy. I’m going to go purchase clothing.

update: I just hauled off and kicked the sink in the womens bathroom. I think I may have broke something. Moments like this I am glad we have a communal “floor” bathroom.

I’ve been frequenting this site a little more than I need to be. Although I feel bad/sympathy/remorse for the women on the site, I feel good about me. Ive always struggled with my identity regarding my weight, annorexia took over my life for 8 years and I have only had my hunger back for 6 years. I have been gaining weight recently, and it bothers me, however I know that if I become too strict on dieting/cleansing/excercising I can fall into the old loop of an eating disorder. If I dont I can fall into the loop of the other kind of eating disorder, the over eating disorder. But even though I am gaining weight I know that my body is still attractive. I dont have stretch marks, and I dont have dimpling or pooch, so Ive stopped worrying for now until I am back in Halifax where I know I will walk more.

Also, side fact - stretch marks and saggy things, have a lot to do with heredity. My mommy didnt have any saggy anything after having me or stretch marks, so I may not have to worry. And that makes me happy

Yesterday was possibly one of the longest days I have experienced in a long time. I had very little to do at work all day, so the day seemed insufferably tedious. After work I went out to dinner with a co-worker to a skeezy chinese place, which was not as skeezy as I first thought. I had Almond Soo Guy (Deep fried chicken with gravy and almonds), wontons and the yummiest egg roll ever. Afterwards we went to the concert that was scheduled for the evening. Possibly one of the BEST concerts I have ever been to while working here. If you have a chance look up “The Emerson String Quartet“. EPIC!(!!)

Afterwards there was a little coffee and tea doo. Attila was there and he was telling me once again about string theory, and asking me about the gods. It was sweet, but I had to go because I was so very tired. He calls me his little granddaughter. He invited me out to the opera on saturday but I am not sure if I will go, I am so far behind on my packing, and if I go out I am more likely to spend money I shouldnt be. 

After Arriving home, the cats decided to get into fisticuffs for 2 hours. Some days I hate having pets, but then this morning Oya woke me up with kisses, or they might have been “Im hungry and if you dont feed my I am going to eat your face” licks. I can never tell with her. So now here I am. One of three people in the office (out of 9 employee’s, wtf?) coffee in hand, sugar consumed, listening to music from last night trying not to fall asleep, and to actually function/get work done.

I  love you.

SO I finally got the boxes out of my house *and the peasents rejoiced* it only put me in the hole 105$ which is a really good price, i dont think the second shipment will cost more than 70 which will be amazing!

So things still todo:
Pack my last suitcase
sell my microwave
STOP buying food i wont be able to eat before i leave
Clean the floors and the walls
Clean the counters and the windows

SO I finally ventured outside today. My first two stops were a bust, i was looking for plastic sheets to wrap up that dead body in my mattress in when I move. After aquiring my plastic wrap in the right place I headed home. On the way I saw THE FUNNIEST THING EVER. It was like a Cindy Lauper music video blooper on repeat, for SIX BLOCKS. This woman was prancing down the street completely out of sync with the rest of reality. Strutting, head bopping, occasionally tossing her head and booty wiggling, and doing that weird arm move that every one does that looks like you are swimming on land. I just about PEE’D myself laughing (thankfully I had just pee’d myself at the homehard ware, when i realized i would only have to pay 5$ for the plastic, so there was nothing left.) This poor woman though, everyone was laughing at her. I almost wish I had her courage, but then I would have to be crazy too.

So Ive managed to get rid of almost all of my furniture. now i just need to ship the damn boxes. Ive been burning through the money that Ive recieved for the furniture, which was supposed to be for shipping and my ticket home. Its very frustrating having cash and not be able to use it on what its intended. Anyways my table is now gone, so all I am left with is my mattress, my bookcase, and a fan. The bookcase will be gone later today, and I am hoping I can pawn it off on someone.